There is so much that I want to put here that I'm kind of going crazy thinking about it all. Who am I kidding? I hit "crazy" a long time ago. I just don't want to make the same mistakes. I believe life is one big lesson with a million tiny lessons rolled into it. I want to remember this one. I want to have it forever saved in cyber space because hello, its better than a nude picture (my kids will appreciate one day that their mom blogged instead of posted a nude picture....its the least I can do).
My mind stays muddled lately with what I Have To Do, What I Barely Did, What Could Have Gotten Done (if I only had the brain power) and Who The Heck Has Time For That?. I put a lot of pressure on myself to get so much done that I lose it in the process. I try to reach out for guidance, but there doesn't seem to be any. Our moms never had to deal with exactly what we are dealing with. Oh sure, there was always keeping up with the Jones', the husband and the kids. But they didn't deal with the internet, cell phones, selfies, friend requests, hash tags or filters. So who do we go to for advice? Where do we find guidance in this pitiful world?
I'm going to go out on a limb and lay down a blanket statement that ALL moms go through a time when they feel so overwhelmed. And now, there is an image to up hold to, and image that is daily shoved in our faces through our phones, on the TV, off of the computer. I'm pretty sure that the majority of cute moms that post on Instagram and Facebook their lives in the form of an adorable picture with their kids hanging off their legs as they stand in a beautiful field dressed in the best Fall outfit EVER with no boogers on their shirt or lunch in their hair with the hashtag of #justanothercrazyday, really doesn't mean to come across as saying "ha ha ha, I look cute, have all the house work done, all I do is play with my kids and smell like an amazing Michael Kors perfume". But somehow we allow it to say that to us. I'm sure that cute mom has days when the only way she can get out of bed, is if Michael, the Arch Angel, gets his crew to fight the battle of waking her up and dragging her tired behind to the coffee pot. However, we look so often at other people's lives and say "I should be doing that too" or "why can't I have it all together like her?". THIS STRUGGLE IS REAL!!! Hashtag. Highkick. Bold letters. Whatever, guilt of not being able to literally be super mom is definitely real. So where do we go? How do we get help?
And as I type all of this, it hits me square in the gut. The Comforter. (palm to forehead) Duh. But really, why didn't I know this? I did know this, I just forgot. And did I not mention earlier that I'm a few miles past crazy right now?!
The Comforter is also known in the Bible as the Holy Spirit or Holy Ghost. He is not scary despite the fact that He cannot be seen. John 14.....I read it and wept. Then I studied the chapter a bit in the Matthew Henry Commentary and the man's words leapt off the page. Verses 26 & 27 are my favorite in explaining that He (the Holy Spirit) will "teach you all things" leaving us with peace. One translation said "peace of mind and heart". The commentary had phrases like "Teach you all things, as a spirit of Wisdom" and "A tranquility of mind". Yes, yes and YES!!!!
I so need this, need Him, the Holy Spirit to bring me comfort, peace and a tranquility in my mind. I get so confused with trying to do it all. Literally an all out ugly cry, I'm a mess face while pleading to God for help. Guys, I've even paused in finishing this blog to test this from God. Because this is way better than any Ikea hack, any contouring video or 50% off sale. Its the truth and it works.
Daily, I begin with reading the Bible mostly on my phone app, and I read it to my kids as well. Daily I ask the Holy Spirit to help me be the mom I need to be as well as the wife, the financial advisor, counselor, cook and maid (and the list can go on for days). To come flood my senses with wisdom and understanding. To help me accept me for me and not compare myself to the rest of the world or even the cute mom at church. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. He knew what my purpose was on this earth before I was formed in the womb. I'm the one getting in the way. And when I do feel those moments coming on, I stop, make sure the kids are in a safe place, get by myself, cry if I have to, but I begin thanking the Holy Spirit for comforting me. I thank Him for getting me through this moment, and that I even have this moment to begin with. And the more I praise, the less my struggle becomes and that unexplainable joy of the Lord becomes my strength.
If you are reading this and think that I'm trying to say I have all the answers, then I've really bombed this post because I don't. God does. Answers about everything.
I've been so excited about this (delayed) revelation that I've wanted to tell every person I know, but haven't for fear or what people may say. But I don't care anymore. I'm putting in on the World Wide Web.
I'll be honest, I was raised in church, accepted Jesus Christ into my heart as my Savior at a very early age and have done my best to keep His laws ever since, but still did not use the Holy Spirit as it was intended for. He is a gentleman. I had to ask. And since I have, my life has been so much better.
I hope this encourages you to stop comparing yourself, to be you, to give yourself some time and to fully put this to the test in your life. We are all different yet designed for the same purpose and that is to please God in all we do, guiding lost souls to the cross and encouraging and caring for one another along the way. And I'm very grateful that God has been so patient in teaching me this lesson.
M
My mind stays muddled lately with what I Have To Do, What I Barely Did, What Could Have Gotten Done (if I only had the brain power) and Who The Heck Has Time For That?. I put a lot of pressure on myself to get so much done that I lose it in the process. I try to reach out for guidance, but there doesn't seem to be any. Our moms never had to deal with exactly what we are dealing with. Oh sure, there was always keeping up with the Jones', the husband and the kids. But they didn't deal with the internet, cell phones, selfies, friend requests, hash tags or filters. So who do we go to for advice? Where do we find guidance in this pitiful world?
I'm going to go out on a limb and lay down a blanket statement that ALL moms go through a time when they feel so overwhelmed. And now, there is an image to up hold to, and image that is daily shoved in our faces through our phones, on the TV, off of the computer. I'm pretty sure that the majority of cute moms that post on Instagram and Facebook their lives in the form of an adorable picture with their kids hanging off their legs as they stand in a beautiful field dressed in the best Fall outfit EVER with no boogers on their shirt or lunch in their hair with the hashtag of #justanothercrazyday, really doesn't mean to come across as saying "ha ha ha, I look cute, have all the house work done, all I do is play with my kids and smell like an amazing Michael Kors perfume". But somehow we allow it to say that to us. I'm sure that cute mom has days when the only way she can get out of bed, is if Michael, the Arch Angel, gets his crew to fight the battle of waking her up and dragging her tired behind to the coffee pot. However, we look so often at other people's lives and say "I should be doing that too" or "why can't I have it all together like her?". THIS STRUGGLE IS REAL!!! Hashtag. Highkick. Bold letters. Whatever, guilt of not being able to literally be super mom is definitely real. So where do we go? How do we get help?
And as I type all of this, it hits me square in the gut. The Comforter. (palm to forehead) Duh. But really, why didn't I know this? I did know this, I just forgot. And did I not mention earlier that I'm a few miles past crazy right now?!
The Comforter is also known in the Bible as the Holy Spirit or Holy Ghost. He is not scary despite the fact that He cannot be seen. John 14.....I read it and wept. Then I studied the chapter a bit in the Matthew Henry Commentary and the man's words leapt off the page. Verses 26 & 27 are my favorite in explaining that He (the Holy Spirit) will "teach you all things" leaving us with peace. One translation said "peace of mind and heart". The commentary had phrases like "Teach you all things, as a spirit of Wisdom" and "A tranquility of mind". Yes, yes and YES!!!!
I so need this, need Him, the Holy Spirit to bring me comfort, peace and a tranquility in my mind. I get so confused with trying to do it all. Literally an all out ugly cry, I'm a mess face while pleading to God for help. Guys, I've even paused in finishing this blog to test this from God. Because this is way better than any Ikea hack, any contouring video or 50% off sale. Its the truth and it works.
Daily, I begin with reading the Bible mostly on my phone app, and I read it to my kids as well. Daily I ask the Holy Spirit to help me be the mom I need to be as well as the wife, the financial advisor, counselor, cook and maid (and the list can go on for days). To come flood my senses with wisdom and understanding. To help me accept me for me and not compare myself to the rest of the world or even the cute mom at church. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. He knew what my purpose was on this earth before I was formed in the womb. I'm the one getting in the way. And when I do feel those moments coming on, I stop, make sure the kids are in a safe place, get by myself, cry if I have to, but I begin thanking the Holy Spirit for comforting me. I thank Him for getting me through this moment, and that I even have this moment to begin with. And the more I praise, the less my struggle becomes and that unexplainable joy of the Lord becomes my strength.
If you are reading this and think that I'm trying to say I have all the answers, then I've really bombed this post because I don't. God does. Answers about everything.
I've been so excited about this (delayed) revelation that I've wanted to tell every person I know, but haven't for fear or what people may say. But I don't care anymore. I'm putting in on the World Wide Web.
I'll be honest, I was raised in church, accepted Jesus Christ into my heart as my Savior at a very early age and have done my best to keep His laws ever since, but still did not use the Holy Spirit as it was intended for. He is a gentleman. I had to ask. And since I have, my life has been so much better.
I hope this encourages you to stop comparing yourself, to be you, to give yourself some time and to fully put this to the test in your life. We are all different yet designed for the same purpose and that is to please God in all we do, guiding lost souls to the cross and encouraging and caring for one another along the way. And I'm very grateful that God has been so patient in teaching me this lesson.
M
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